I do realize that anxiety drove this experiment, but I am really about facing the fears and moving through them trying relaxation techniques while doing them. Inviting people over to the house has really helped the upkeep of the house. Yesterday night went really well. I am close to the point of not even flinching when the doorbell rings.
I realize I just want some hands on training somedays. Mostly to watch those "my-house-is-spotless-everyday" moms do the things they do each day. Do they wipe down the entire high chair every meal? Do they vacume with the edger every time? Do they mop two or three times a week? Do they ever clean the carseats without previously having some sort of offensive oder accident? Do any of them allow you to shadow them for the day?
Now I understand that when your "Things" get older and can clean on their own you have more help. But my theory these days is "Do what you can, and don’t stress over the rest" This attitude has been the general feeling of untidyness since the teenage years. And often has plunged me deeper and deeper into my own muck. I think the more recent frame of mind is "why shovel snow in a blizzard?" but by days end I am exhausted and tell myself "I’ll do it in the morning". I do run the dishwasher and clothes washer during the am hours pretty often.
If anyone is willing to share the hidden secrets of the spotless home matienance program I would love to learn. Not necessarily implement but for now learn.